Bird Illustrations

House Sparrow in water colour and pencil

Bullfinch in water colour

Limbo


I’m present, but not.

Eyes drifting

their attention’s shifting

to positives greener,

anywhere but with me, here.

Constantly assessing my words,

misinterpreting thought,

caught

in limbo,

nowhere to go.

A know-not in a room of knows.

 

Subconscious flagellation,

uncomfortable

brain and tongue freeze,

ease

out of the room

to solitude, just for a moment.

It’s the vacant half smiles,

the application of absence,

moving away,

a social stray,

more fun to have elsewhere,

anywhere but with me today.

 

Sat under a London plane

ashamed and blamed.

Soothing breeze, pleased

away from the crowd,

a good crowd,

with more than a pinch

of idealism,

of altruism.

 

To wish on a stone

enter without ripples,

to submerge without fear,

to get respect from a peer,

to actually enjoy, right now, here.